So two weeks nearly under the belt. I’m still riding the wave…some days I am feeling fabulously strong, svelte and energized! Other days I am lethargic, headachy, body achy or setting my pants on fire! But overall I am happier, stronger and more even-keeled.
Today was a big day — spin and 2-hour pole dance class, in between kids, SanaVita and riding my bike back and forth through the city. I’m tired today but it’s really no wonder.
And I have a headache. I get migraines. They’ve been pretty tame through this cleanse fortunately but today I am struggling. I haven’t given myself a colonic today and although I did have a small BM earlier this morning that may be what’s ailing me. I’ll be with my kids all weekend and won’t have time for any self-care services such as colonics so I will try and get one in before I leave today.
I am really excited to spend the weekend with my kids. We haven’t had a weekend together in such a long time, since before they went away for three weeks with their Dad. Cleansing with them can sometimes be challenging. however. It’s hard to always plan ahead to have something with me when I’m crashing that’s suitable. And hanging with other parents with their kids usually ends with meals that include a glass of wine…or two or three! So I just need to be aware and try my best to be prepared.
As far as my sleep goes, I have to say last night was pretty remarkable. By 10:30pm my eyes were literally burning they were so tired, I hit the lights and passed out almost immediately. I haven’t done that without some type of aid in, well, perhaps years. My “monkey mind” as my dear friend Scottie likes to refer to it — the tapes that play over and over, the endless conversations of what could have been, what I should have done, what I will do and how much my heart still hurts over the loss of love I felt in my last relationship — was quiet. I mean seriously quiet. Usually when I lay in bed, my monkey mind keeps me awake. When I finally fall asleep if I wake up to pee or even just to roll over, my mind becomes active immediately and I can be awake again for hours.
Last night I woke up to pee at 2:30AM (4 straight hours!). My plan was to keep my eyes closed and do it fast and try to get right back to sleep. But I am on my period and, well, had some attending to that needed to be dealt with. Lights had to be turned on, things needed to be washed… if you are a woman, you know exactly what I am talking about. The middle of the night fiasco lasted about a half an hour and as I was crawling back into the bed I remember thinking, “jeez, I wonder how long this is gonna take now!” It’s the last thing I remember. I passed right out, waking up one more time in the 5am range and again went right back to sleep. Next thing I knew it was 7:15am and I had 45 minutes to get myself ready, make the kids breakfast, make their lunches, snakes, pack their knapsacks, wake them up, feed them, brush their teeth and get them ready and out the door!
We made it to school right on time.
I am looking forward to hitting those sheets again tonight. I am surprised my menstrual flow is as strong as it is right now as usually it is much lighter and I wonder how this cleanse or purging my body is doing is affecting my cycle. I also wonder how I will feel when my period is on its way to finishing. The body aches and constipation I was experiencing last week and the headache and lethargy I am having today may all be directly related. Which could mean smooth sailing ahead….
Arul Goldman is the Founder and Director of SanaVita.