A day and a half left to 2013. This certainly wasn’t the hardest year yet, but I’ve been constantly nagged by the feeling that I could do better. That I could be stronger. That I could be even more productive, fit, healthy and consistent.
A new dawn is about to bust out big time and you know what they say, “it’s ALWAYS darkest before the dawn.”
Two days ago I walked into a startling situation. The details are not necessary to share here but I was left feeling ambushed, stunned and emotionally paralyzed. The last 8 years of my life came crashing down upon me in a river of vivid color — recalling, no reliving, the challenges and the abundance of what I have been confronted with and what I have managed to accomplish — all while fighting an ongoing battle that will never end in victory for anyone. So why keep fighting? Truly letting go is the only way out.
I know I am being vague, but the point is clear. It is time to heal the wounds from the past. It is time to make CHANGE!!! Not just for a month or a year, but an everlasting change that heals wounds that prevent positive, fluid, forward movement. This is a grand opportunity. A new beginning awaits. And what better way to begin than on this New Year, on this new Moon, with SanaVita’s very own 28-Day Cleanse. The thing I love about this cleanse is that it offers enough time to really make a change of mindless habitual behavior and replace it with thoughtful intention. Every time. With every choice.
Since I walked into that situation that shook me to my core and started a stream of tears and body quivers that have been ongoing for the last two days, I have comforted myself in the ways I learned lifetimes ago. I have isolated myself. I have eaten. I have drank. I have recapitulated, gotten angry and taken that anger and turned it inside out into the old comforting feeling of self-loathing. It’s an old habit, one I don’t turn to very often anymore, but always there when I need it. It’s been two days. Today I commit to changing that habit. Today I work from home, safe behind the walls that I have built around myself to keep me cozy. But two days is long enough and a new dawn is approaching. Tomorrow I step back out. I will go back to spin. I will further break down my walls in yoga class with my beloved teacher, Justin Richie. And I will continue to plan for and work toward this new year and the donation-based workshop we will be holding on January 1st at 4pm inside the safe haven of SanaVita.
God bless us all.
Arul Goldman is the Founder and Director of SanaVita.