SV 28-Day Cleanse: Arul’s Day 3

January 3, 2014

Yesterday was pretty tough. It was one of those days that would have been awesome, hanging with other parents and their kids, eating and drinking the day away. Sleep deprived and cooped up all day with seven kids running in and out of our place (we often host as we all love having company over), I started cooking a variety of foods in the morning so we would be well prepared throughout the day. Plus, I had done a major shop before the impending storm.

Luckily it was day 3 and I was still only on 1 shake per day so I could enjoy some of the meals I prepared. I made sautéed kale with garlic, coconut oil, black beans and avocado. Sooo nice and warming. Chicken and broccoli got me through the day and kept me far away from the pasta, pizza, cake and cookies that were being passed around the house throughout the day.

It was a long day, but overall a good one. I was happy to stay in all day and have lots of activity flying around. I remember what it felt like to be a kid and wake up to hear those magical words, “Schools closed today” just as consciousness embraces you and you sit up rubbing the sleep away from your eyes as the realization sinks in. “OMG, I don’t have to go to school today!!! I get to stay home and play ALL day long!!!” Such a special moment! Reliving it through my children was just as special as seeing it through the eyes of “the mama.” By the time my kids woke up I had already been on the phone working for more than 2 hours, but that was inconsequential to them. Before we lifted the shades, I put the 2nd half of last night’s Nets game on for us to watch. We had gone to bed before it was over and I had received several text messages congratulating us on our win. We are well known as the Nets Fan Family. So we put the game on. It truly was an extraordinary game and the three of us sat on my bed screaming and cheering as Joe Johnson swooshed the winning basket right at the buzzer. A great shared moment to kick off the day!

As the day went on, I grew more and more exhausted. I finally hit the sheets at 9ish. I woke up again at 11:30 and was up for 2 hours and fell back asleep till 7:30 in the morning. A MUCH better night’s sleep! Thank the lord.

Arul Goldman is the Founder and Director of SanaVita.

SV 28-Day Cleanse: Arul’s Day 2

January 2, 2014

Day 2 felt awesome actually! After crashing out at 9pm only taking some melatonin (those of you who know me know I have major sleeping disorders), I woke up at 2:30am and fell back asleep around 4 till close to 8am! I felt nicely refreshed and started my day, anxiously waiting till 5:00 when it would be time to go pick up my kids from school. We haven’t been together for the whole winter break (except one night when we went to the Nets game and WON!) and I’ve missed them a lot! It’s definitely difficult being a single mama and then, when the kids go away it gets lonely. Especially in the winter when there’s not as much motivation to go out and do stuff.

I took a very rigorous spin class by a teacher I’ve been trying out, Atkin, over at Soul Cycle. He’s tough. Militant. But he does kick my ass. Went to work, took a yoga class and had lunch with my business partner, Gabriel. In the morning I had my detox shake. I did the creamy chocolate. I’m typically not a chocolate lover, but really liked it a lot! It was super creamy and felt like it gave me an extra buzz. Lunch was salmon over kale and quinoa salad and for dinner ½ a chicken paillard with salad. I’m still new to the meat-eating part, but I’m following our modified elimination diet, which includes a few types of meat.

It was awesome to see my kids again and I was in a great mood. We all went to bed together at 10pm. Unfortunately though, I woke up at 11:30 and tried to stay quiet in bed with them. By 2:30am I realized that I was feeling really hungry even though I went to bed feeling totally satiated. I made myself a “Brain Food” shake and crawled back into bed with the kids. I finally fell back asleep at 5am and was awoken an hour later with calls from my staff trying to navigate who could make it into work, who couldn’t and whether or not schools were closed due to the storm.

It’s early morning now as I write this. The babes are still sleeping in bed. I can feel the extreme cold crawling through the windows. Schools are closed and on 2½ broken hours of sleep, I am aware this is going to be an interesting day ahead of me…

Arul Goldman is the Founder and Director of SanaVita.

SV 28-Day Cleanse: Arul’s Day 1

January 1, 2014

BABY!!!

Ok. So although I am not 100% back to myself, I am feeling LOADS better.

And yes, I DID make my bed this morning FIRST THING as you can see. My, what a difference it makes.

More exciting than bed making was the official launch of our SanaVita 28-Day Cleanse along with the New Moon in Capricorn workshop, led by Gabriel, the Director of our Pharmacy, Stefanie Weiss, our in-house Astrologer and me. Stefanie went through the Moon cycles and the influence they have on us. We set our intentions and Gabriel took us through the whole cleanse step by step: the products, the diet, what to expect…

It felt amazing to be there as a group, going through the process together and starting the new year in this manner. Today was Day 1 for me on the cleanse and it’s just the perfect way to let go of the past and look towards my future.

Stefanie asked us all to write down what we wanted those things to be. I would like to share mine with you now.

LET IT GO!!

1. The pain I carry over my failed marriage and the ways I feel I was let down…let it go.

2. My pain over my manly. It’s been nearly 2 years. LET IT GO!!!

3. My fear of being alone without an active partner who loves me whom I love back. LET THAT FEAR GO!!!!

BRING IT IN!!

1. My posture. I used to have the most impeccable posture. Since child bearing, I’ve noticed myself slouching more and more. I WILL regain the connection to my core that WILL, in stride, take me everywhere I need to go.

2. Sobriety. How different would my life look on December 31, 2014 than it does today? It’s not so much about the drinking as it is the lifestyle. Finding something different to do, new strategies to let loose, new places to hang out and people to link up with. And no more wasted moments feeling hung over. Never missing spin class because I was too hung over to go. ☺

3. And lastly, to learn to treat myself the way I treat my babies. With patience, compassion, protectiveness and OH…soooooooo much love.

Ready, Set, GO!

Arul Goldman is the Founder and Director of SanaVita.

SV 28-Day Cleanse: Arul’s Day Before

This is how I woke up this morning. Puffy eyed, bloated, swollen and lethargic as hell. For 2 days I comforted myself with food and now am really feeling it! Sure I made the wholesome stuff, chopped organic veggies stir-fried with coconut oil and garlic, etc. Smoothies. But then at night I craved the salty sinful stuff that I NEVER allow myself to eat. Bagged chips. I raided my kids’ snack drawer and this is the result. And what I had to do now seemed insurmountable. I had to get out of bed. Wash my face. Brush my teeth. And get dressed to leave the house. UNBELIEVABLE! How could I accomplish these tasks? How ridiculous a question after all I’ve stepped up to the plate for in the past. These simple mundane rituals are suddenly so difficult.

But I did it. For the third day in a row I did not make my bed. But at least I got out of it and out of the house. I missed spin class 3 days in a row. I signed up yesterday for this morning’s 9:30am resolution burn with one of my favorite instructors, Danny Kopal. I got a bike right up front next to him and was to ride my heart out for 90 straight minutes (classes are usually 45 minutes long). I’ve only done a 90-minute ride once before in my life and I was in prime condition to take it on. This was scary. After days of lying around and stuffing my face, feeling stiff and bloated I needed to face this challenge. And I did it.

Danny’s affirmations were inspiring and truthful as usual. All about surrendering, just letting it go. Whatever the IT was. And challenging ourselves to be the most outstanding we can be. Go the distance. Leave it all behind and ride toward our fullest potential in the New Year. Intermittently, I often find myself shouting out a guttural “YEAH!!” or “YES!!!” when I’m really struggling and what he says at that moment gives me the extra push I needed to march forward little soldier!

After a regular class I usually feel ALLLL better. Ready to take on the world. But today’s fix, although it helped me tremendously, was really just a first step to getting back to my own starting point. But it pushed me over the hump for sure. I was able to go to the center. Do some work and give myself a colonic to get some of the disgusting waste I could feel myself carrying around OUT! That helped too, but still there was the heaviness in my heart and I came home to work for a few more hours and get ready to snuggle into bed. But my friends wouldn’t have that and came to me so we could cheers the New Year in together. And so I got further out of my glum mood and half-assed made my bed. (I ALWAYS start each day with a freshly made bed. If you can’t even make your own bed, HOW are you expected to go out and do anything in the world?) I hadn’t made my bed in 3 now. It was another start upward.

So tomorrow I will go into the New Year in a much better space. I’ll sleep in as I stayed up till midnight (and a little after) after all. But I will NOT be a hung-over mess! And I will be gentle with myself as it’s my last day without my babies as they will come home on Thursday. I’ve missed them SO much, but for sure the show will be ON as soon as they walk through that door.

And each and everyday will get brighter and better as we passed the hump of the longest, darkest day of the year. Only longer, brighter days ahead.

And I WILL make my bed 1st thing when I wake up tomorrow.

Looking forward to seeing you all in the new year of TRANSFORMATION and to seeing many of you tomorrow at SanaVita for our New Moon / New Year / 28-Day Cleanse workshop!

Happy Day 1 everybody!

Arul Goldman is the Founder and Director of SanaVita.

SV 28-Day Cleanse: Arul counts down the days

A day and a half left to 2013. This certainly wasn’t the hardest year yet, but I’ve been constantly nagged by the feeling that I could do better. That I could be stronger. That I could be even more productive, fit, healthy and consistent.

A new dawn is about to bust out big time and you know what they say, “it’s ALWAYS darkest before the dawn.”

Two days ago I walked into a startling situation. The details are not necessary to share here but I was left feeling ambushed, stunned and emotionally paralyzed. The last 8 years of my life came crashing down upon me in a river of vivid color — recalling, no reliving, the challenges and the abundance of what I have been confronted with and what I have managed to accomplish — all while fighting an ongoing battle that will never end in victory for anyone. So why keep fighting? Truly letting go is the only way out.

I know I am being vague, but the point is clear. It is time to heal the wounds from the past. It is time to make CHANGE!!! Not just for a month or a year, but an everlasting change that heals wounds that prevent positive, fluid, forward movement. This is a grand opportunity. A new beginning awaits. And what better way to begin than on this New Year, on this new Moon, with SanaVita’s very own 28-Day Cleanse. The thing I love about this cleanse is that it offers enough time to really make a change of mindless habitual behavior and replace it with thoughtful intention. Every time. With every choice.

Since I walked into that situation that shook me to my core and started a stream of tears and body quivers that have been ongoing for the last two days, I have comforted myself in the ways I learned lifetimes ago. I have isolated myself. I have eaten. I have drank. I have recapitulated, gotten angry and taken that anger and turned it inside out into the old comforting feeling of self-loathing. It’s an old habit, one I don’t turn to very often anymore, but always there when I need it. It’s been two days. Today I commit to changing that habit. Today I work from home, safe behind the walls that I have built around myself to keep me cozy. But two days is long enough and a new dawn is approaching. Tomorrow I step back out. I will go back to spin. I will further break down my walls in yoga class with my beloved teacher, Justin Richie. And I will continue to plan for and work toward this new year and the donation-based workshop we will be holding on January 1st at 4pm inside the safe haven of SanaVita.

God bless us all.

Including myself.

Arul Goldman is the Founder and Director of SanaVita.